Personal Bible Study: Shewing Yourself Approved

“Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.” II Timothy 2:15

This blog started because one day God got ahold of my heart to be more faithful than I ever had been before … in not just reading His Word EVERY day: no, but in STUDYING His Word every day. There is a great difference, my friend!

I do realize that I was MIA for far too many months … and I apologize for that. Sadly, life and poor mental health happened. In the process, I failed you, and I failed my heavenly Father.

Just recently I have been fervently praying to God to bring my writing back. I missed it. I missed my daily deep studies and thoughts. I missed being with you all.

In those prayers, God and I had some very open and honest conversations. Yikes! You know the kind that I am talking about, do you not? Well, God has answered my prayer … far above what I expected. Isn’t that just like our God?

God knows what I need, and He knows what you need, my friend! So, He has spoken to me about how I can accomplish His will for my life personally and also help to bring some sweet-smelling savours into your life for Him at the same time.

For those of you who have been with me since the beginning … even before this blog was started … when I was writing a daily devotional and only posting on Facebook, you will know that I love word studies. I also love to do a study for an entire month on one theme … with sub-themes for each day.

So, are you ready?? Brand NEW to you … and to me … I will design a FREE monthly STUDY sheet for you and me to study from. Oops! Did I say you … and me? Yes! We are going to STUDY together! Yay! It sounds like fun, does it not?

To start us off, this first FREE Devotional Study Sheet is available right now for you and me to start studying on May 1st. Yes, that is just a few short days ahead!

I have entitled this first Devotional Study Sheet, “Seeking God – Finding our All in Him.” For that is EXACTLY what you and I need to do … find our ALL in Him! Each day, you will find a sub-topic and scripture reference that follows that very thought. [March 2021 topic: Let’s Walk the Walk … Not Just Talk the Talk]

So, how will this work, you ask? You will want to print off the Devotional Study Sheet AHEAD of time. While you are at it, go grab your Bible and your favorite journal and pen … please, NOT a loose piece of paper!!! Have them set aside and ready for May 1st.

Each day, find a quiet place and a quiet time. Begin with a prayer to God to clear your mind of all the ramblings, cares of this life … and whatever else that has found their way there. Ask Him to give you wisdom and insight into what He wants you to learn that day.

Begin by writing down the date in your journal … and I also write down the day of the week. Take your Devotional Study Sheet and write down the topic for the day. Once you have found the scripture in your Bible, write it out verbatim as well. Then prayerfully read through the verse. Allow time to meditate and for the Holy Spirit to speak to your heart.

Once you have done this, then allow the Holy Spirit to draw your mind toward other verses and cross-references that go along with that topic … or even other topics. The important thing is to let Him draw you along.

Be sure to write down any of these other references. I write verbatim other verses as well. Then, lastly, I write down any thoughts or prayers that He may have given me.

Before you finish, take a moment to thank Him for what He has shown you that day. Ask Him to help you to apply it to your life … even that very day. So, that you did not just take time to read His Word, but to study it and apply it. That is where the sweetest savourings are found!

Before getting up, take a second to check off the block on your Study Sheet for that day. This will help give you a good visual and also a good motivator to be faithful in studying EVERY single day.

Yes, I could write the devotional for each day and post it, but I feel that God wants me to share this magnificent opportunity to turn our hearts and our minds to His Word … physically get our grubbies on and get that shovel out, get in there with both feet, and start digging on a personal level.

I love to bake, and I love to share my baking. But, the best, most memorable baking is what I personally made and partook of. That is what I want for you, my friend!

I not only desire for my life to be a sweet-smelling savour to my LORD, but I desire for your life to be the same. Let us join together and “Study to shew [ourselves] approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed ….” KJV

Note: To receive this FREE Devotional Study Sheet for this month and for the months thereafter, simply scroll up/down the right sidebar to the signup box! I have also laid out some basic information that is very easy to follow, so you will definitely want to check it out as well! Of course, if at any time, you have questions, please do not hesitate to contact me at bettina@asweetsmellingsavour.com.

Ladies, please only print one sheet for your personal use. If you are going to use it for a group study, for the ladies in your church or you want to share with a friend or family member … which I encourage all of those … please direct them to this post for them to participate on an individual basis. We want them to experience firsthand what God wants for us this month and that begins by them taking the first step in committing to receiving the Study Sheet personally. Thank you for honoring this request!

To Serve or Not to Serve

 “Serve the Lord with fear …” Psalm 2:11

Well, that is a good question. Should I serve the Lord today or should I not serve the Lord today? Do you wake up every morning asking yourself this question? No? Well, neither do I. But … you knew that there was a ‘but’ in there, did you not? But, in truth, every single day that we wake up, this is the choice that we have to make.

To not serve is a subconscious choice at best. So, we must make a conscious choice each day.

To serve simply means to wait on; to be of use to; to perform duties. I did a Bible search for “serve the Lord” … for that is what we are to do as Christians. Interestingly enough, that exact phrase was only found 26 times in the King James Bible. We obviously will not cover all 26 of those, but there were several that stood out to me, as I had my devotions this morning, that I would like to share with you today.

Joshua 24:15a says, “And if it seem evil unto you to serve the Lord, choose you this day whom ye will serve …” Wow! Joshua did not cut any corners here, did he? He was basically saying, “Well, if you really do not want to serve the Lord, then choose right now who you will serve.” I can hear the frustration in his voice, can you? Can you imagine with me how God feels when you and I, His children, do the same thing? We play church. We play Christian. When all God wants is for us to serve Him!

Joshua 24:18 goes on to say, “… therefore will we also serve the Lord; for He is our God.” If for no other reason, we must serve Him because He IS our God, is He not?

Now let us jump over to I Samuel 12. In verse 20 it says, “And Samuel said unto the people, Fear not: ye have done all this wickedness: yet turn not aside from following the LORD, but serve the LORD with all your heart.” What a blessed assurance that Samuel just shared with the people! That same assurance is ours today! Hallelujah!

First, let us not fear. Secondly, even though we may have sinned greatly against our Lord in failing or ceasing to serve Him as we should have in the past, we can still turn from those things and serve the Lord. Not just serve the Lord, but serve Him with ALL of our heart!

Before we close today, let us look at one more verse and that is Luke 16:13. It says, “No servant can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon.” The devil would love nothing more than for us to believe the lie that we can serve God and the world at the same time. That we can live like the world one minute and speak and live like a Christian the next minute. These mix like oil and water. In short, they do NOT go together. So, why then do we try to mix the two?

Instead, let us choose as Joshua did that day and boldly say, “… but as for ME and my house, we will serve the Lord.” We can even be like Samuel and readily answer our Lord’s call to serve … “Here am I, LORD!”

Are you ready to serve or not to serve? That is the question.

The Following

 “… Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men.” Matthew 4:19

As I sat down to have my devotions this morning, this was the first verse that came to my mind. Many of you know that I love word studies and word definitions. So, to begin, I went to the Merriam-Webster dictionary and found that the word follow literally has an entire page of definitions. Wow! Was I ever surprised!

Let me share a few brief definitions. To follow means to go or proceed; to act in accordance; to accept authority; to come into existence as a result of something; to copy after or to imitate; to watch steadily or attend closely to. Stop for a moment and let these steep in your brain. There is so much depth to this word that I never realized before! Do you see it as well?

Typically, in my devotions, I will look up other referenced verses in the middle column of my Bible. I will also use a Bible app to search for a word or phrase. This morning, I searched for “follow me.” It did not find many verses with this exact phrase, but I did find numerous verses that had some form of the word follow in them. I immediately latched on to some of those verses and that is what I want to share with you this morning.

First, in Matthew 4:19, we found the exact phrase of “follow me.” If those were the only two words in this verse, they would be enough. Do you not agree? Can you just hear your heavenly Father saying to you, “Follow me.” He does not need to expound, or explain, or clarify, or even justify why He wants you to follow or what He expects from you if you follow. Just simply, “Follow me.”

Secondly, I looked up Psalm 63:8 which says, “My soul followeth hard after thee …” Wow! I not only must follow my Father, but I also must follow “hard.” I must strongly desire. I must be extra alert and aware that I am on the right path. I must do all in my power and with His strength to follow hard and follow close.

Thirdly, I was blessed to read Proverbs 21:21 which says, “He that followeth after righteousness and mercy findeth life, righteousness, and honour.” Am I truly a follower? Or am I one who likes to lead … my way and in my time? I pray that God will help me to be a follower … so that I may find life (versus death), righteousness (morally right and free from sin), and honour (esteem from my Father)!

Fourth, and last, and on a rather soul-searching note, I read Matthew 10:38And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth [not] after me, is not worthy of me.” Here my heart stopped. Am I worthy of Christ? Yes, I claim Him as my Savior, but, is He my Lord as well?

Yes, I claim the name of Christ. I claim that I am a CHRISTian. But, do I follow Christ? Do I live a life that He wants me to live? Do I obey Him? For, to obey is to follow.

What about you, my friend? Do you need to find yourself on your knees, like I did, confessing your sin to your Father so that you can truly follow Him?

September 2019 Devotionals


So, ladies! I am switching things up for September. Are you ready?

In the month of September, I will not be sending out a daily e-mail nor posting in my blog. BUT, I will still be making a post on my Instagram account and Facebook page.

If you have not read today’s devotion yet, please take a minute to do so (Day 31: V is for Voice) … well, it will probably take 2-3 minutes, but you know what I mean! It has some important information in it to launch us into the month of September.

Basically, my goal is to have EACH … yes, EACH … of you to help me share God’s Word in September. I do not believe that we have a loud enough voice in our social media presence, my friend. The devil is having a hey-day while we hide away in any nook and cranny that we can find! Let us turn that around this month! 

I know that we do not all like to post, but sometimes choose to be silent readers instead. I understand that, BUT, God has called each one of us to have a voice proclaiming His Truth. So, just for this month, PLEASE join with me in having a voice in social media.

You can do this one of two ways. You can either TYPE out one verse from your personal devotions each day on your personal timeline … you are having your personal devotions each day, correct? Then TAG ME … I’d love to write an encouraging word! Or you can just type a verse from your personal devotions each day as a comment under my daily post. It really does not matter to me which way you choose … because the entire purpose is to promote the truths of God’s Word.

Remember, this is only a verse. You do not even have to write anything else … no words, not an entire devotional, nothing! Just simply proclaiming God’s Word … will not return void!

I do NOT encourage you to post something that someone else has posted or “share” what someone else has posted. Why? Because I want us to be in God’s Word for ourselves! I need to be there and YOU need to be there. We do not grow near as much when we are spoon-fed by someone else. We grow the most when we are mature enough to feed ourselves.

So, what do you say? Let us share what the voice of the Lord is saying to us … each day in September!

I love y’all and am truly grateful for your love, prayers, and words of encouragement along the way! Do not desert me this month, but help me proclaim God’s Word!

His voice,
Bettina

Day 31: V is for Voice

He said, I am the voice of one crying in the wilderness, Make straight the way of the Lord …” John 1:23

V is for voice. Voice means a sound coming from vocal utterance. Have you ever had such a bad sore throat that you did not want to talk … and wished that you and everyone you know knew sign language? Well, I have. But, what a quiet world it would be if no one could use their voice.

God made our bodies, did He not? God also made us with vocal chords to be able to speak, to sing, and to make sound. So, what would happen, I wonder, if we all decided that we would not use our voice? Yes, God has given it to me … but I just do not feel like using it today, it is too much trouble, or it is my voice and I will use it when and how I want to. Ding, ding! Is your bell ringing?

Do we need a gentle reminder today that our bodies and our voices are not our own? I Corinthians 6:19-20 so clearly assures us of this … “What? Know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s.”

At the Christian Writer’s Workshop a couple of weeks ago, Sister De shared with us about “The Power of One Anointed Voice.” She spoke about John the Baptist and the voice that he was as “ONE crying in the wilderness.” What did he cry (proclaim)? To “make straight the way of the Lord!” How many were crying? Only ONE … you and God make a majority!

How refreshing to hear one proclaiming forth Christ instead of self! I get so frustrated and discouraged when I’m on social media and see people post so much about self or share quotes that sound good and make you feel all fuzzy inside, yet are totally misleading and are not even biblical. Be careful, my friend, at what voice you are proclaiming! Make straight the paths of righteousness.

The paths of this life can be so twisted and jumbled without adding more to it to confuse and deceive. The devil does a good enough job of that on his own. Let us not be his puppet or tool. I would love to turn the tables on the devil. Would you? I know that I am not the only one who is proclaiming God’s truth every day on social media, but there should be more of us … in fact, EACH and every one of us has an accountability to God to be a voice for Him!! Whoa! Did I just say that EVERY single one of us needs to be proclaiming every single day? Yes, I did!

Lesson Objective: Think about this … if you are not proclaiming God’s truth on social media (which is very simple to do), who are you proclaiming it to?

I want to encourage and challenge you to post one verse every single day in the month of September on social media. You must type it out or you can use a picture with a verse, but it must NOT be shared from another’s timeline. Then tag me in that post. The world needs to hear our voices … as “one crying in the wilderness, Make straight the way of the Lord …” Will you do this, my friend?

Will you pass or will you fail?

Day 30: S is for Sink

“… And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus. But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me.” Matthew 14:29-30

S is for sink. To sink means to be submerged (beneath the surface); to fall or drop to a lower place. Life in the shoes of anyone is not easy, but life in the shoes of a Christian is even harder. What is the difference? Well, for starters, the devil already has control of your life as an unsaved person, so he is not worried about you. But, if you are a Christian, be assured that he is going to be in a constant battle with you to try to break your resolve and your faith in God.

When the devil can get you so disturbed, distraught, and discouraged, he knows that your eyes are then on the circumstances around you … and consequently, are no longer on Jesus. When this happens, we begin to sink spiritually. We are weakened. Our faith begins to shake and cracks begin to appear in places that did not have cracks before.

Some days it seems like the devil spends his whole entire day sitting on your shoulder whispering lie after lie into your ear. Right now he is residing in deep south Texas on my shoulder … and is not showing signs of heading north to your shoulder anytime soon. Everyone thinks that the temperatures here are hot outside right now, but they are nothing compared to what is inside!

The devil was even brave enough to go up against Christ in the wilderness (Matthew 4). When he fed Christ lies, what did Christ do in response? He quoted scripture. What do we do when he feeds us lies? We usually gullibly believe them and wallow around in them, do we not? But, what are we to do instead? What example did Christ set for us? We are to quote scripture, right? God’s Word is the truth and we must fight lies with truth!

I recently gifted a good friend of mine with a journal specifically for one purpose. That purpose was to write down a lie of the devil on the top of each page and then to fill that page with scripture (God’s Word aka the Truth). She and I had already been sharing scriptures to refute the lies that the devil had been trying to feed us. But, having it in black and white … on paper … just seems to make it more concrete and more sure, does it not? I encourage you to do the same thing. You do not have to buy a journal. Even a notebook will work.

You may also be interested in devoting one page to “Why sink when you can swim?” verses. What are these? Well, these are your “go-to” verses when you are needing extra reinforcements from scripture to fight the devil. Your page will probably look different than mine, but that is not what is important. What is important is that you write verses there that give YOU strength. If you do not know of any verses, ask God to show you ones and then start digging in His Word.

Lesson Objective: To understand what it means to sink. To use this knowledge to learn how to swim (fight the devil’s lies with God’s Truth). To start your own “Why sink when you can swim?” journal.

Did you pass or did you fail?

Day 29: H is for Help

I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth.” Psalm 121:1-2

H is for help. Help means to give assistance or support to; to benefit a cause; to further an advancement. Pastor has been preaching a LOT of messages these days … like every message! … that has been driven straight to the core of my heart. How has he been lurking around my heart? Umm … I believe that it is called the Holy Spirit! I am so thankful for a pastor who faithfully studies and prays daily for us … and most importantly, preaches what the Holy Spirit lays on his heart! I do not take this for granted.

When we go through deep waters, do we not seek to find someone to connect with? Someone who has been there, done that, and has a t-shirt to prove it?  Well, when my soul is heavy, it is easy to find myself searching the Psalms. David’s human flesh was so apparent and he was always so transparent in his feelings … and very plainly and boldly spoke about them. Hey, I am human and my human flesh can resonate with David’s feelings and bemoanings. Do you find yourself seeking out the Psalms as well?

Psalm 42:5 is the perfect example of this … “Why art thou cast down, O my soul? And why art thou disquieted in me? Hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance.” The words that David speaks are like the same exact words that are coming out of my mouth … or at the least are bouncing around inside of my head. But, interestingly enough, David did not stop there. No. He repeated this again in verse 11 … and then AGAIN in chapter 43 verse 5.

Wow! David must have really been down to repeat himself three times in such a short space of time. But, then I stopped to think about the significance of this. THREE times. Why three? Did you know that the number three in scripture depicts divine wholeness, completeness, and even perfectness? Can you see how God was teaching David an important lesson?

I was not going to type out this entire chapter, but I changed my mind. I know that I need to hear it again … to focus and to meditate on it some more. I trust that you will find time today to let it sink into your spirit as well, my friend.

I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth. He will not suffer thy foot to be moved; he that keepeth thee will not slumber. Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD is thy keeper: the LORD is thy shade upon thy right hand. The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night. The LORD shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul. The LORD shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore. Psalm 121

Lesson Objective: To understand what help means and that our help truly comes from God alone.

Did you pass or did you fail?

Day 28: W is for Wilderness

They wandered in the wilderness in a solitary way; they found no city to dwell in. Hungry and thirsty, their soul fainted in them. Then they cried unto the LORD in their trouble, and he delivered them out of their distresses.” Psalm 107:4-6

W is for wilderness. Wilderness means an area that is virtually uncultivated and uninhabited; an empty or pathless area. When I think of a wilderness, I think of a desert. But, that is not necessarily the case. How do I know? The dictionary, of course! Hehe

So, if a wilderness does not equal (is not synonymous with) a desert, then what is the difference? Yes, a desert can be a virtually uncultivated and uninhabited area … and it can be empty or pathless. But, desert actually means an excessively dry place. It also can be a very desolate (joyless) place.

Are you confused yet? Well, do not be too worried because even my analytical mind is all twisted up! But, for the sake of this devotion, let us picture in our mind a true wilderness … with all of its gigantic pine trees, with its rugged terrain, and with its majestic mountains.

Have you ever watched those “wilderness” survival shows? If you have, have you ever seen them in a desert (dry, barren place)? Nope? I have not either. They have always been in a wilderness-y type place, right? In the middle of a forest far away from habitation. Did you notice that there is always sustenance there … if you look in the right places?

God allows us to go into the wilderness … into the fires so to speak … not to destroy us, but to purify us. Alaska, my home town and home state, is going through a tremendous fire right now. It is seemingly destroying everything in its path for thousands and thousands of acres. When those fires are finally gone, what is left? Black, black, and more black. Am I right? To the human eye, that is what is seen. But, remember that the human eye is finite.

In our spiritual lives, we will also be led into the wilderness and be tempted and tested like never before. The fires will rage hot, hotter, and the hottest that we could ever imagine. When those fires finally pass … and they will pass … black will be left behind. But, do not despair, my friend. God makes beauty from ashes (Isaiah 61:3). God is testing you to see what you are made of. He is purifying your life.

If you keep watching, you will see new life sprout up in the midst of all the charred remains. With that new life comes an even greater beauty … one that could not have transpired without the fires before it.

Even though time spent in the wilderness seems like a solitary time, it is not. God is there with you and it will not last forever. The wilderness is a place to place through … not to set up residence. Say, “Hallelujah!” right there!

Lesson Objective: To understand what wilderness means and the difference between it and the desert. To learn that even though we are greatly tested by fires in the wilderness, God is still there. He will not only get us through, but He will bring forth great beauty! 

Did you pass or did you fail?

Day 27: V is for Validate

Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.” I John 4:1

V is for validate. To validate means to confirm or make legally valid. In our country’s legal system, all evidence must be validated or proven as truth. How much more important for our lives as Christians to be validated … proven as truth.

My mother-in-law enjoys watching game shows on TV … the old game shows. I do not remember what the name of the one show is, but the key phrase/concept is, “Will the real ____ stand up?” Have you ever seen this before, or am I dating myself because I remember this from my younger years? At the beginning of the show, they share a significant event or trade that a person is in. They then show you a panel of three people who pretend to be that one person. They also have a panel of three other people who try to guess which of those three people is the real person that was described. They do this through asking questions and watching mannerisms or tics to see if they can catch one of them in a lie … with something that does not add up … by the way, I have learned that if something does not add that there is a reason that it does not add up. It is interesting to watch. People can be very convincing in their answers and actions … only to be found that they were false.

Do you and I live our lives this way each day? Do we do and say things that will have others around us draw the improper conclusions? Do they see us in the false light or do they see the true … or the “real” … person that we are?

You can fool all of the people some of the time and some of the people all of the time, but you cannot fool all of the people all of the time.
— Abraham Lincoln

No matter how many times or how many people we fooled into thinking that we are someone or something that we are not, guess what? God ALWAYS knows the true (“real”) you! God will never be fooled!

Just as in the court of law, when the truth comes out, there will be consequences to pay. The Bible so clearly tells us in Galatians 6:7-8 to “Be not deceived [do not be fooled]; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting.”

What are our motives or motivation for what we do? To determine this, our spirits must be tried (put to the test) … whether we live after man and the flesh or after God.

Lesson Objective: To understand what validate means. To learn that even though we can seemingly fool … pull the wool over … other’s eyes, God is never fooled. God sees the real you every single time, my friend!

Did you pass or did you fail?

Day 26: Z is for Zeal

But it is good to be zealously affected always in a good thing, and not only when I am present with you.” Galatians 4:18

Z is for zeal. Zeal means eagerness, ardent or fervent interest or pursuit of something. I like to see zeal as it’s synonym passion, which refers to a deep stirring within.

There is something inside each one of us that produces a zeal or passion to rise up out of our comfy beds every morning. It is a driving force that comes from deep within and pushes us forward into another day. It may be a job, it may be a   person, it may be a hobby, or it may even be the almighty dollar.

I do not know what your zeal or your passion is, but be assured that if I were to follow you around for one day … or maybe even less than a day … I could pretty accurately pinpoint what your passion is. In fact, it may take as little as 15 minutes of scrolling through your social media presence. What do you think? If you are still in doubt, I challenge you to go to your social media accounts and scroll through. What do you think the world and others see there … not what YOU see, but what THEY see?

I have not always been the Christian that I need to be. I am by far not perfect and truly, the more that I study and try to get closer to God, the more unworthy and immature I see myself. The more that I learn from God and His Word, the more that I see that I need to learn. God is giving me a passion for Him and I so desire the same for you, my friend!

I know that Noah doubted God at first, but can you imagine how he felt while he was building the ark? There was just the handful of them, and when he looked around, what did he see? He saw everyone else doing their own thing like it was simply just another ordinary day. Yes, some took note of what was going up, but what did they do? They ridiculed Noah.

My heart is grieved for those who claim to be my brothers and sisters in Christ and yet, they show no signs of zeal or passion or love for our Lord. They put anything and everything in front of God, His Word, His church and His people. They live a life that is completely and totally self-centered and self-motivated. What is wrong with this picture? Yes, there is something wrong here, my friend!

In Galatians 4:9 it says, “But now, after that ye have known God, or rather are known of God, how turn ye again to the weak and beggarly elements, whereunto ye desire again to be in bondage?” If you are truly saved, it is a sin to not follow after God. Why would you want to put yourself back in bondage when Christ has so richly and freely given you the liberty to love and to serve Him? Why, my friend? Why?

Lesson Objective: To understand what zeal is. To acknowledge our sin of lack of zeal for God and the things of God. 

Did you pass or did you fail?